May 26, 2011

wearing flowy pirate pants

excited about my new research position at the Henry Jackson Foundation!

convinced that I am going to dominate at Words with Friends…lets play!

working on waking up earlier every day

practicing being more mindful.

feeling that tomorrow is a new day.

happy that a few of my girls are just a short drive away.

noticing that when it rains it pours…and my plants love it.

hoping to begin my Nike+ training program off strong

determined to run some sort of mini-marathon by October.


aesthetic experience

September 22, 2010

I found this post via Shakti Sunfire’s posting on Elephant Journal. I am loving this today…here;s to the wish that we can all experience this and know this.

While all melts under our feet, we may well grasp at any exquisite passion, or any contribution to knowledge that seems by a lifted horizon to set the spirit free for a moment… We have an interval, and then our place knows us no more. Some spend this interval in listlessness, some in high passions, the wisest, at least among “the children of this world,” in art and song. For our one chance lies in expanding that interval, in getting as many pulsations as possible into the given time. Great passions may give us this quickened sense of life, ecstasy and sorrow of love, the various forms of enthusiastic activity, disinterested or otherwise, which come naturally to many of us. Of such wisdom, the poetic passion, the desire of beauty, the love of art for its own sake, has most. For art comes to you proposing frankly to give nothing but the highest quality to your moments as they pass, and simply for those moments’ sake.

Walter Pater, 1868.

College years are awesome…don’t stress about finding the perfect place- it will all work out (but consider visiting a few places and not leaving everything up to fate…its okay to help fate out a bit).

Invest in a mac…not a pc. you always liked the bright colors on mac’s anyways…go with your gut.

Also, invest some *ahem most* of your stocks in Apple.

Stop straightening and dying your hair. Embrace the curls…they totally rock and realize how sweet your brown hair is (also…maybe use some bumble and bumble hair creme…you won’t regret it!)

Stay up late.

Live up those summer nights with your friends- softball can wait…it will be there waiting the next morning.

Don’t worry about not having a boyfriend…single is gooood.

Ask for a digital camera for christmas….you don’t know it now, but it is going to be mighty hard to keep track of all those disposable cameras freshman year at college.

Back up your files.


Then, back them up again.

That seven am Applied Calculus class may seem like a good idea now, but I would reconsider.

Also, reconsider those Friday classes…three day weekends rock.

Don’t give up when that Applied Calc class kicks your butt…your actually really good at it, you just need to move that time to later 🙂

Read more. Paint more. Draw more. You love it.

Take that pottery class. And that ballet class. And that modern class.

Go seek out the drummers that hang out at Rittenhouse Square on Sundays…there will be some hula hoopers there too. Talk to them. A love affair will be born. I promise.

Be brave and stand up for what you believe in.

Don’t worry about what other people think about you…you will find your niche.

Above all- don’t regret anything. Seven years from now you will be happier than you ever thought possible. Its all going to work out 🙂

Ode to Summer

August 31, 2010

Summer where have you gone? It seems like just yesterday I was looking ahead, dreaming of basking in your warm embrace and now I find myself looking back, reminisicing over our time spent together.

I hope you don’t feel cheated, dear summer.

I consent that my attention was taken away from you slightly by the union of myself and my respective Drew. But rest assured, dearest season, that while you may have felt the slightest twinge of jealousy at the emphasis placed on our special day, its timing was picked to occur at the peak of your glory-in all its warmth and light! 

I also admit that I did flee away from you a bit-escaping away to the opposite coast to spend two blissful weeks in the refreshing coolness that Washington State and Canada’s nothern island had to offer. But again, I beg you to remember the weekend in which I chose to go south, whirling and twirling with my homemade piece of PVC swirling around me-fully living it up for three days in your 105 degree heat. That is love, dear summer, true love and I honor the gifts returned to me of campfires, smores, group drums and dance, and collective insight!

I honored you by spending one solid week digging my toes into the sand and sweating it up under your bright rays-my skin still retains its darkness! And while I did not dip myself into ocean water once (scared away by its icy coolness) or swim within refreshing clorinated waters but once this season, I swam in rivers and lakes often enough that I hope it more than makes up for it in your eyes!

I dipped my nose into so many pollen filled beauties the past three months that I feel a bit of a heady haze. Its so lovely, summer, that I can begin to excuse the faucet which my nose has turned into. Ahh, the memories of those lillies….:)

Dear summer, we’ve had a good one. And while I know that your official end is not until September 21, I thought today would be a good day to say goodbye. There is no day, like today, eh? And so, sweet summer, I bid you and your swarthy temperatures adeiu today, and embrace the coming coolness which I hope tomorrow brings!

1. laughing so hard I can’t breathe and I start to cry

2. taking a hot shower

3. stepping out of said hot shower on a cold morning and wrapping up in a warm bathrobe

4. rainbows

5. hoops and hooping

6. the smell of autumn

7. autumnal activities (i.e., carving pumpkins, picking out pumpkins, jumping in piles of leaves, corn mazes, apple cider, etc.)

8. falling in love

9. having that love returned

10. opening the door to my house and immediately hearing my dog bounding through the house to excitedly greet me

11. yoga

12. meditation

13. listening to birds sing

14. swimming in streams

15. dancing

16. spinning, and spinning, and spinning

17. smiling at a stranger and having them smile back

18. holding the door open for someone and seeing a look of happy surprise

19. christmas

20. christmas tree

21. hot chocolate

22. singing

23. camp fires

24. swinging on swings

25. flying a kite

26. listening to good music with good friends

27. listening to said good music with said good friends on a road trip

28. doing pretty much anything outside

29. while outside, doing pretty much anything on or in water

30. when all the helicopters/dandelion seeds/flower petals fall from the trees and i walk through them in an enchanted moment

31. holding and petting animals

32. hugging (those known to me or strangers)

33. cuddling

34. eating a good piece of squash

35. untying a knot

36. playing games (board games mostly)

37. baking for other people

38. drumming in a drum circle

39. seeing new places

40. meeting new people

41. reconnecting with old friends

42. doing something i never thought i could do

43. bright colors and flowy skirts

44. barefeet

45. flower crowns

46. chai tea

47. indian food

48. nag champa

49. cookiedough my adopted hamster

50. reading

51. realizing that this list could go on and on and on…:)

Growing Up….

June 1, 2010

So, it is just over a year ago that I graduated from college. It seems like it was just yesterday. Where did the year go? They say that the older you get the faster time goes, but I never really payed much attention to what “they” had to say. Looking back over my fastly sped by year, I started to ponder.  Obviously time does not actually speed up. Time is constant. What does change though is us. The older we get, the more worries/thoughts we have. It seems that less and less we live (and love) each moment for what it is, but instead are always looking ahead to the future or back to the past to what is to come or what was.

Now, don’t get me wrong. It is not bad to remember things or to try and plan ahead for other things. I was so carefree growing up I never ever thought about the future.  All was super good but when it came time to pick what it was I would do with my life I found myself at a sort of standstill. It was something I had never really thought about before. Usually, when kids are little they get asked “So, what do you want to be when you grow up”. They typically respond with some answer like doctor, or vet, or marine biologist, or some other sort of career path. I never thought like that. Ask me what I wanted to “be” and I would tell you that I didn’t know, or didn’t really care, I would figure it out…but being a princess would be okay I guessed.

And that was that. I took a very laissez-faire attitude until college when I realized I was actually going to have to choose something. It was time to “grow up”.  And oh, how hard that was (and continues to be) for me. I like a little bit of everything. I like art, and science, and music, and reading, and working with people, and being outside, and cooking, etc., and I want to do it all. I intend to do it all. I intend to embrace the carefree ways of my youth! But, I need to try and recapture the carefree mindset of my youth.

Growing up has been great, but my mind has been turning, and churning at the frenzied pace. Insecurities, doubts, comparisons, what-if’s, etc., and while in college, it seemed that I was really starting to gain control of them. But I now realize that while progress has been made to control some, others were just pushed to the side, waiting for the right opportunity to pop back up. They’ve re-emerged and we’ve had our little battles. But I resolve not to let them get the better of me! They are what they are. They come and they go. We all have them. If I can get through the day without one-great. If I can get through a day where I struggled, but was able to emerge at the end positive-even better. I learned.  

Sometimes, it is frustrating to have people ask me what I am doing with my life-and what I plan to do-as I still don’t have really any plans. My plan is to figure it out. I have decided to practice the yoga of trust and acceptance. I trust that the universe is going to point me in the right direction. I accept what it is life throws at me (or doesn’t) and I accept that whatever happens, happens. It is all going to be good, and it is all going to work out.

I am enjoying getting to pursue my hobbies more. Throwing myself into art, dance, yoga, hoop, crafts, etc. I am enjoying the conscious excitement that is beginning to emerge as I feel one of these paths take me in a little deeper. I am beholding, with awe, the true creative potential of the human mind that I am fortunate enough to experience every day.

So, no matter how frustrated I may get, or how boggling this may be to others, I am going to go on with this sense of trust and acceptance. I know that I am going to figure it all out. There is no point in trying to rush it, it will come when it comes (and will be so right, and so good, when it does). Until then, I am just going to enjoy the ride and be thankful that I get this awesome opportunity to learn, and live, a little bit each and every day.

Heres to each and every instant. May we all live ours to the fullest.

snowpocolypse continues

February 11, 2010

As of tomorrow, I will have officially had off of work for an entire week. I know that I should probably be going stir crazy right about now. Call me crazy, but I have really been enjoying it!

With all the free time I  have found myself having, I decided it would be cool to give this whole blogging thing a try.  In the spirit of cold weather, I am going to post my recipie for kick-ass hot chocolate. I made it on Monday night for Drew (my fiance), and my little sisters and it got rave reviews. I knew I got something out of my time spent as a barista… 

:Kick-Ass Hot Chocolate:

you will need….

cocoa powder

milk (your choice, I prefer soy)

vanilla extract


whipped cream

:directions: heat up some milk over a flame. while the milk is heating, take your most favorite mug and place 2 scoops of cocoa powder, one scoop of sugar, and a dash of vanilla extract (shhh…this is the secret ingrediant…certain popular coffee shops use vanilla syrup but vanilla extract is just as good). once the milk is warm (not boiling, you don’t want to scald your sensitive tounge), add the milk to the mug and mix everything together. Finish with a dallop of whipped cream on top, perhaps some chocolate syrup drizzles, and ENJOY!